insomniac Numb

Wall of ambivilance is up. Got kicked out of my math class by the short-short long-beard prefessor, my pleadings and promises of future payment falling on dead ears. Got kicked out of work. Temporarily, they say, I am not approved for employment in the eyes of the corporate office, after working at the store for two weeks. Letting my impulses drive me, succumbing to my vice of gaming, halo on pc, w00t. Feel like I'm spiraling down, got to get back to the bottom. Slept 15 minutes on a bus. A night well spent, defragging the hard drive a quarter way in 3 hours, struggling with videocard settings, and a glorious hour of gameplay. Whee. Mementary bliss, leaves me so empty afterwards. But I don't care anymore. Oh, and some creditor wants 300 dollars for a bill from a year and a half ago and he wants it right now. Whee. Don't get to see my friends the same way or as much as I got to before I started working. An obvious fact, but I miss them.

Word.

Had a good time with the V's yesterday, but was painfully aware of the lonelines on valentine's day. Monumental amounts of procrastination today. Might be comming down with a cold soon. Might be going to sleep sooner.

I still love you! Wait! Come back!! ...what are you doing with that blowtorch? Oh....

I would write more if I had time. I swear. I don't hate you. It's just hectic.

Officially, I am no longer attending school full-time. Grrrrrr. Got dropped from all my classes by the financial aid office; long story. Managed to get reinstated to my English, and will continue to attend the remaining two. Perhaps I will save up enough monkeys to re-enroll.

I volunteered to design the literary book "Etchings" for the school. I have my first project meeting Monday. I also start tutoring for the Typography class in the graphic design department. Just an in-class tutor, a few hours per week. Gives me the perk of being in a graphic design class without being enrolled. And I enjoy helping struggling computer neophytes, really.

Work is going fine. I pleased myself with ringing up my very first order today, and now I can do certain things from start to finish. However, there are levels of proficiency one should never have to achieve with a staple remover.